Olde soul, young heart..: January 2019

Thursday, January 17, 2019

...how she made sure it was happily ever after!



I've been procrastinating to write for a while now. This year has some special motivation for me to come back to this writing & want to restart my blog with the decade old story... my story, our story...

You are merely going on about your life, not searching for anything.. just going on with your life as it comes..


Just then, you find something... something very special which you were not even looking for...


The following extract from my life is a perfect example for what destiny is and by far, is one of the most life-altering event which shaped up exactly* (*conditions apply) like I always thought it would...

Gifted with the "superpower" of having an Old Soul (you know what, yes I call it a superpower now, & I do not see why I should not - anyways, more about that later); I have these pre-set rules or what I call the non-bargainable hard truth..  And that is, I will fall in love only once in my life & consequently fall in love a thousand times, only with the same person!
Call me old-fashioned, but yes that is "the" ultimate reality for me.. Quote un-quote, as is this Sonnet!


So, how did I know she is the one? Apparently, there is not one correct answer to this question. First things first, I was not searching for her. She just happened to meet me through acquaintances and, most importantly I didn't even notice her. (So, lets cancel out the myth - "Love at first sight")
I feel, love is something that you know exists, although it takes to know someone else so very well, that the connection between you two is almost telepathic.. and that magic happens only eventually..

Like I was saying, I was traversing through my mess of life called "Engineering" while, she was gliding through hers. Thus, marked a beginning of a new journey of  friendship; wherein she volunteering to help me out with my mess and I believing in her efforts. I being the emotional-fool, funny happy-go-lucky kind-of-a guy made sure that I be myself all the way yet, being happy in the smallest of the moments in life. Not knowing if there was something amiss in my life, she perfectly filled in the gap which in the first place, I thought was non-existent. Her light shining bright over my days enlightening my path while, her starry eyes holding me in the grip of confidence to overcome all odds. 

Our friendship blossomed on the basis of this new found connection, as my life jigsaw was starting to build itself piece-by-piece, moment-by-moment..

Nights become days, chats become a necessity, short walks become long journeys.. Mention of her name giving me butterflies & grin sheepishly, almost noticeable. All these events resulted into the eventual "telepathic" connection I mentioned before. In my mind, there is a havoc of feelings and to decide between right and wrong.. of course for an old soul like me, it is challenging. 

But of course, I did think about the fine-tunings & sacrifices I will have to make to work it through, to stand by my decisions & never back down.. If I was going to do this, I must be very sure..

There is a special mention for the "Ying-Yang" a.k.a."Angel-Devil" kind-of-a influence from two of my (rather 'our' ) trusted allies which helped me look in the right direction, in a well balanced way. Balance is just necessary when you use just your heart most of the times. So, these two allies made sure I had my insecurities & thoughts in check. While the "Ying" inspired me to go for it & motivated me to believe in myself; the "Yang" looked out for me without any bias and made sure my emotions were at par with the REALITY Check. I can easily say, I'm forever indebted with these well-wishing folks.. who are as much family no matter what happens.
The push and pull of the "Ying-Yang" compelled me to muster up some courage & ask..

So, I go ahead & ask her... Since we were on the same page, that made things easier. She measures her options, takes her sweet time... turns out she also is one of the other most unlikely persons to fall in love. But, only difference is she thinks practically (which I've never known to do as such), she thinks about our families, only when she is convinced to see a future she will say yes...

Like myself, I had found one who would complete me as a whole, very well be the part of me that was missing. So, I wait patiently..

But then the sun is setting, time is running out & I am on one knee admiring her radiant face glowing in the orange sky's glory.

The time stops for a moment, when she believes in me to say "Yes!" & the rest is history!
With dreams in our eyes & joy filled up to the brim in our hearts, we mark the beginning of an era.
I believed I had found her, I believed she is the one, Like an old-fashioned-soul I believed I'm a one-woman man, I believed in us.

How to work it out, how to plan it through, how to live it out, how to get the numbers done.. I could think less about this, as she takes up the mantle to put the legos together & build a castle.

I am a believer of us, but she.. she made sure it was happily ever after...!!

On the path of self-discovery as 'us', another thing I get to realize after a few years, you must wonder why she loves you..that she will answer..

But this is what I think is the ultimate reality.. To us, to infinity & beyond...


So many years passed by, but I still do, 
My dil goes mmmm... yes, I feel it too..
I get tears in my eyes, you should not like it, but you still do..
Days apart, up & downs.. yes, we are still strong too..
Gave you a few rocks..to which you said I do,
But, the rock which holds me together still remains you.. 
Life is giving us lemons.. I believe that's a test we need too,
My inner strength is derived, still from you..
Unable to prove myself at times.. I feel it too,
But remember.. have been the same crazy guy you loved too..
Life is just begun with our families besides you,
Don't forget that, 'We' started this story otherwise.. it was just me & you..
However ugly we may fight/argue, you ask me.. why I come back to you?
I made you a promise a few years back, & you know it too..
P.S. I love you, I will always do..

Dated: May 14th 2018 (Our first Wedding anniversary)
Some stories need to be engraved permanently!


If you reached the end of this article, you are a part of our story. Thank you for giving a read, I will be promising myself to write more & not just once a year.. Cheers! ;)