Olde soul, young heart..

Friday, February 08, 2019

Faces.



Happy faces.
Sad faces.
Confused faces.
“In Love” faces.
Angry faces.
Crying faces.
Proud faces.
Arrogant faces.
Scary faces.
Excited faces.
Friendly faces.
Emotional faces.

It is so fascinating how we associate expressions with faces and, in turn define a person overall.

How is it that we almost never forget faces of people we know for too long?
Oh well, although faces do change over time; that doesn’t seem to deter much.

Lets say you do not see the faces of your loved ones for a significant amount of time. And then, you see them in front of you. How do you react when that happens? 
Just imagine when this happened to you, and you get a smile on your face.
You are now thinking of those faces.

It may happen that, humans feel one thing  but their faces express something else altogether. But, that isn’t necessarily a fault. It is just the way they work.
We generally associate this to be a bad thing, but it may come in handy at times.
Like for example, a struggler (in any field) tends to go through ups & downs constantly; but he/she chooses to keep a brave face & doesn’t let worries/tensions seep through.
Yes, Sometimes faces are strange.

Faces are adaptable too.
“Put on a brave face and, keeping going”, they say.
And this comes to each and everyone.
We do put on a brave face & feel it, but it is still the same face, isn’t it?

Another strange thing is, it is often believed that you look at a person's heart, not his/her appearance.
Once you start liking a person in that way, don’t you start loving the face.
No other good heart works for you then, without that lovely face! #foodforthought

All said and done, I believe our parents faces are the most pure ones & the smile on those bright faces, Just Priceless!
Those are the faces which you see for the first time when you enter this world.
You do not have any memory of that, but just imagine how it would feel to access those memories.
Those faces are indeed engraved on your mind.

"Faces are to humans, what bar-codes are to Products..
But scanning those bar-codes, may not always yield whatever the packaging says.."


Image: Taking off from Baltimore, Maryland
Courtesy: Southwest Airlines



P.S.:  This is how my complex thoughts work. And, this is just something I thought about while my flight was taking off & I was on the way back home from a tiring trip.
Air traveling alone, gives some time for me to self-reflect & contemplate about life.
Well, I have a notepad handy, always! :D




Thursday, January 17, 2019

...how she made sure it was happily ever after!



I've been procrastinating to write for a while now. This year has some special motivation for me to come back to this writing & want to restart my blog with the decade old story... my story, our story...

You are merely going on about your life, not searching for anything.. just going on with your life as it comes..


Just then, you find something... something very special which you were not even looking for...


The following extract from my life is a perfect example for what destiny is and by far, is one of the most life-altering event which shaped up exactly* (*conditions apply) like I always thought it would...

Gifted with the "superpower" of having an Old Soul (you know what, yes I call it a superpower now, & I do not see why I should not - anyways, more about that later); I have these pre-set rules or what I call the non-bargainable hard truth..  And that is, I will fall in love only once in my life & consequently fall in love a thousand times, only with the same person!
Call me old-fashioned, but yes that is "the" ultimate reality for me.. Quote un-quote, as is this Sonnet!


So, how did I know she is the one? Apparently, there is not one correct answer to this question. First things first, I was not searching for her. She just happened to meet me through acquaintances and, most importantly I didn't even notice her. (So, lets cancel out the myth - "Love at first sight")
I feel, love is something that you know exists, although it takes to know someone else so very well, that the connection between you two is almost telepathic.. and that magic happens only eventually..

Like I was saying, I was traversing through my mess of life called "Engineering" while, she was gliding through hers. Thus, marked a beginning of a new journey of  friendship; wherein she volunteering to help me out with my mess and I believing in her efforts. I being the emotional-fool, funny happy-go-lucky kind-of-a guy made sure that I be myself all the way yet, being happy in the smallest of the moments in life. Not knowing if there was something amiss in my life, she perfectly filled in the gap which in the first place, I thought was non-existent. Her light shining bright over my days enlightening my path while, her starry eyes holding me in the grip of confidence to overcome all odds. 

Our friendship blossomed on the basis of this new found connection, as my life jigsaw was starting to build itself piece-by-piece, moment-by-moment..

Nights become days, chats become a necessity, short walks become long journeys.. Mention of her name giving me butterflies & grin sheepishly, almost noticeable. All these events resulted into the eventual "telepathic" connection I mentioned before. In my mind, there is a havoc of feelings and to decide between right and wrong.. of course for an old soul like me, it is challenging. 

But of course, I did think about the fine-tunings & sacrifices I will have to make to work it through, to stand by my decisions & never back down.. If I was going to do this, I must be very sure..

There is a special mention for the "Ying-Yang" a.k.a."Angel-Devil" kind-of-a influence from two of my (rather 'our' ) trusted allies which helped me look in the right direction, in a well balanced way. Balance is just necessary when you use just your heart most of the times. So, these two allies made sure I had my insecurities & thoughts in check. While the "Ying" inspired me to go for it & motivated me to believe in myself; the "Yang" looked out for me without any bias and made sure my emotions were at par with the REALITY Check. I can easily say, I'm forever indebted with these well-wishing folks.. who are as much family no matter what happens.
The push and pull of the "Ying-Yang" compelled me to muster up some courage & ask..

So, I go ahead & ask her... Since we were on the same page, that made things easier. She measures her options, takes her sweet time... turns out she also is one of the other most unlikely persons to fall in love. But, only difference is she thinks practically (which I've never known to do as such), she thinks about our families, only when she is convinced to see a future she will say yes...

Like myself, I had found one who would complete me as a whole, very well be the part of me that was missing. So, I wait patiently..

But then the sun is setting, time is running out & I am on one knee admiring her radiant face glowing in the orange sky's glory.

The time stops for a moment, when she believes in me to say "Yes!" & the rest is history!
With dreams in our eyes & joy filled up to the brim in our hearts, we mark the beginning of an era.
I believed I had found her, I believed she is the one, Like an old-fashioned-soul I believed I'm a one-woman man, I believed in us.

How to work it out, how to plan it through, how to live it out, how to get the numbers done.. I could think less about this, as she takes up the mantle to put the legos together & build a castle.

I am a believer of us, but she.. she made sure it was happily ever after...!!

On the path of self-discovery as 'us', another thing I get to realize after a few years, you must wonder why she loves you..that she will answer..

But this is what I think is the ultimate reality.. To us, to infinity & beyond...


So many years passed by, but I still do, 
My dil goes mmmm... yes, I feel it too..
I get tears in my eyes, you should not like it, but you still do..
Days apart, up & downs.. yes, we are still strong too..
Gave you a few rocks..to which you said I do,
But, the rock which holds me together still remains you.. 
Life is giving us lemons.. I believe that's a test we need too,
My inner strength is derived, still from you..
Unable to prove myself at times.. I feel it too,
But remember.. have been the same crazy guy you loved too..
Life is just begun with our families besides you,
Don't forget that, 'We' started this story otherwise.. it was just me & you..
However ugly we may fight/argue, you ask me.. why I come back to you?
I made you a promise a few years back, & you know it too..
P.S. I love you, I will always do..

Dated: May 14th 2018 (Our first Wedding anniversary)
Some stories need to be engraved permanently!


If you reached the end of this article, you are a part of our story. Thank you for giving a read, I will be promising myself to write more & not just once a year.. Cheers! ;)

Thursday, January 04, 2018

Mapping the soul to thou heart

Genetics, upbringing, circumstances, birth Zodiac, et al... are some of the things that may define the soul; the heart rather remains young & foolish..
One may age like a fine single malt Scotch, the older.. the richer and smoother, the better.I, sometimes feel like that single malt, because that isn't everyone's cup of tea.

I wonder why.. but looking at the world through the glasses of heart comes naturally to me. Measuring every damn situation equally, weighing the situation, taking perspectives & then coming to a judgement; may not be the most ideal way to handle everything in life.
I've come to learn this every time at different situations in life, learning from others.. hell, from my own life; not that I am not trying to lose this habit.. But, trust me it is something that comes naturally to me, I guess. To the people I was able to connect with whatever might be the circumstances or may it be distance (oh yeah, I might've went away from my home country, leaving the friendlies behind), these people chose to stay & I definitely do honor & appreciate it deeply!

So many situations in my life happened, some planned, some pleasant/unpleasant surprises. Of the people I've lost, the people I made new connections with, some people who have been a strong supporting force, always there for me; some other who I left along the way..These shaped the way I look at the world & it was time I felt like penning it down.



So, if you are here reading this, you must know I will be addressing the many mistakes of my life so far... ha ha.. just kidding.. I do not see these as mistakes but, learnt my lessons from them & move forward..& circling back & committing the similar mistakes again... yeah, why not! :P

Sarcasm is only a part of my personality, let me try & unfold the others!


Besides being a modern day thinker, I've still been old-fashioned in many ways. Surviving with this leads to the fact that, indeed the heart & soul should strike some kind of a deal to keep going. Often, I feel torn in between the two.. well.. it has worked out so far.. P.S.: Stick around, it is gona be one hell-a-va ride! :D Cheers!

                                                                                                                                                           - TG